Chitty chitty bang bang!

I cut my bangs once. And then I made a mental note never to get bangs again. I guess somewhere along I forgot that mental note.


Guess who isn't stepping out of her house for the next six months?

The email came. It wasn't life changing. Not even close.


Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone.. This one goes out to you, Big Guy.
You really made a fool of everyone.

you (haven't) got mail!

For the last five weeks, I've been waiting for this one email that will change my life. And during all this waiting, I'm noticing a trend in all my emails going unreplied. Not cool, people, not cool.

I spoke to my mum today. She tells me she's back in Bangalore. And it's been raining. And that my old balcony was dirty.


I suddenly miss home again.

(stupid stupid sappy heart!)

Dear God,

I pray for that one miracle. Just that one. Please make it happen. I'll be indebted to you forever!

Amen

I have very contradicting conversations with myself nowadays. In some ways it's like I'm doing everything I possibly can, and sometimes I feel, it's all severely lacking. One thing I know is that I'm not your typical try-try-and-you-will-succeed kind of a person. I've always been the get-what-you-want-because-you-deserve-it person. I honestly don't know how much longer I can keep this going.

behind blue eyes.

You know what I like most about LA? The colors. The blues and the greens are so intense, it's trippy almost. On a clear day, the color sky blue is redefined. And during sunsets, you can just see so many blues in the sky, it's overwhelming! And even the greens... are just. so. green! I feel like sharing, so here you go.

outside my building.

 outside USC.

 near Malibu (this one's my favourite.)

 

                                     outside the library. my current favourite study spot.

These aren't from Los Angeles, but I'm really proud of these pictures.

Washington DC.

Lady Justice, New York.

Washington momument, DC.

You guys MUST come visit!

I'm taking the day off. To do nothing but lie in bed, watch movies, eat some Maggi. A day of nothingness. Let's see how that works out. See y'all on the other side!

The real post

I hope this doesn't turn out to be as whiny as it seems in my head.

The leave of absence was longer than expected. I've been busy, not-so-busy and a lot in between.
Fine, since you asked nicely, the updates:
- graduated. Double degree'd. And thank you!
- completed an amazing internship at DreamWorks. Yes, I DO KNOW! And with the most amazing set of bosses ever.
- tattoo'd! YES.
- one amazing week in New York, complete with the Met, a Broadway musical and family. New York is currently on my would-not-mind-working-inspite-of-the-snow city! WOW, what a city!
- and.. currently unemployed.

OK, I just changed my mind, there shall be no whining in this post.

The last four months of my life have literally been perfect. And I wouldn't change anything! Look where I've come, from always wanting a flight ticket back home to not changing anything. Aren't you proud of me!? I'll never forget the feeling I had at the end of my first day at work. I was waiting for my roommate to pick me up. I sat on a bench nursing my foot, those blasted formal shoes. I sat there and it dawned on me. I had, at that moment, exactly what I wanted. And I was happy. And I felt that way, each and every single day I was there. (Well, the days I decided not to overthink, that is) Faith reaffirmed etc.

Which makes now, kind of unbearable. The in-between-ness. (Wow, I just double hyphenated) The invading thoughts that push me to just try getting any job, rather than THE job. The feelings of just 'bleaargh', you know.

But a wise person once told me, you don't want it bad enough if you give up. So here's to sucking it up, and just keeping an erase button at the end of each day. And. just. believing!

Dear God,

This part, I call, asking for help.

HELP!

(A better post shall come soon!)

Amen.

(PS - How've you guys been?)